I used to be disappointed with my voice, both when speaking and singing. Spending seven years of my life at an all girls’ school, I quickly became aware that most of the girls around me had voices with a higher pitch than mine; most of the others would stand in the soprano section of the school choir whereas I was a regular feature of the alto section. There was nothing quite like squeaking out high notes or, on one occasion, almost passing out while hitting a note far past the comfortable end of my range to make me realise that I just wasn’t meant to be in the choir section that got the recognisable tunes.
In a way, though, singing in the alto section helped later with playing the euphonium. I had already learned to listen for cues in the higher range tunes so that I knew where to come in on bass lines. Conversely, playing the euphonium in bands helped me to realise how important the lower ranges of a musical arrangement are in driving a tune on, adding texture and colour to a piece of music, and ‘adding some welly’ to a piece of music that might otherwise be unsuitably ethereal if only the higher range voices/instruments were present.
I guess I realised my voice was more suited to folk-style songs when I was about 10; my junior school choir were learning a version of The Skye Boat Song for a school concert and I got to sing the third verse as a duet (it was supposed to be my year singing that verse but only me and one other girl were singing loud enough and the teacher got fed up with asking the rest to sing louder). It was a bit of a revelation because singing that style of music caught me more deeply than any choral music had ever done. I went on to sing that song at the autumn concert when I joined my secondary school and was known for the next 4 or 5 years as ‘the girl who sang The Skye Boat Song’ (not a bad thing!).
Why it then took me 14 years to start singing folk songs in public, I don’t know. Well, no, I guess I do know and that would be because the right reason hadn’t come along. Said reason sat next to me at the Lower Shaw Farm knitting circle last year and started to chat to me out of the blue – there are very few people I connect with so instantly but she is one of them (yes, Talis, I’m talking about you)!
I find I can connect with Talis’ contemporary folk songs on many, many levels so when she asked if I’d be part of her floating band a few months ago I didn’t hesitate to say “yes”. It was only about 5 minutes later I finally clicked that would mean singing in front of audiences of an unknown quantity/variety and a small voice in my head said “Oh, boy, this is pretty important stuff”. Despite the worry of not wanting to screw up my friends songs, I was still excited and flattered to be asked.
So, the past couple of months have involved band practice at least once a week and I am loving it! I get to sing songs I adore about things that mean a lot of me, I get to make music with people who have become a second family to me and I get to see audience’s faces light up when they hear Talis’ songs. It’s magical!
I’m waffling, though, which means it’s probably time to bring the blog post full circle.
I used to hate my vocal range, to think that it limited me and made me less than those girls and women who could sing high into the soprano register.
Now? Now I love the fact I can sing as low as I am able to do (and as high as I am able too as well – I’m not as much a ‘low into the boots’ girl as I thought). If I couldn’t sing in my range and with my voice’s timbre, I would be able to bring what I do to Talis’ songs, our voices wouldn’t compliment each other as well as they do. Most of all, I wouldn’t be able to see Talis’ broad grin as my voice joins hers and my cheeks wouldn’t hurt from grinning back with just as much soul-soaring happiness.
Folk music’s helped me to find a voice for my soul and, most importantly, it’s helped me to love another part of myself.